Alix in Wonderland

I was going a hundred miles down a road that I couldn’t see

I was fearfully and blindly grasping at the straws in front of me

Hoping for a light to shine and illuminate the way

The right choices for me to make and the right words for me to say

When you hit a bump and you’re going that fast it can cause a massive wreck

Standing in the middle of the highway of my mind, I was surrounded by the damage, a haunted feeling creeping up my spine.

My self-confidence was crumpled like the metal of damaged car

A person in a shell of nothing but some bruises and some scars.

Anxiety smacked me in the face like an airbag going off inside my heart

What was meant to keep me safe and well was now slowly tearing me apart.

I was constantly running, inside the dark parts of my mind,

Running from both past and future, terrified of what I might find.

My mind was playing both the roles in an epic game of “cat and mouse:”

What was once a place of comfort quickly darkened into a madhouse.

I was giving all my power to the fears inside my mind

Until the day I took a deep breath, one small step, and left it all behind.

The best part about the fear that can consume you from inside

is once you turn and face it, it always runs away and hides.

It doesn’t matter if you are little or very very large

When fear slips up right behind you, you are the one who is in charge.

Tell your fears you see them, and that everything’s all right.

Tell your worries that it’s all ok, you can focus on just making it through tonight.

You don’t have to face all of your battles in one almighty war.

You can take it day by day, finding peace and joy in small moments that you never saw before.

Anxiety likes to whisper small doubts into our ears.

Small seeds of fear and of incompetence that grow into monstrous fears.

If we focus on the negative, the evil and the sad

We will only see the darkness, not the blessings that we have.

No matter what your mind is telling you, things are going to turn out just fine.

And to truly enjoy the sun you have to endure some cloudy times.

On this journey for peace I have set upon, I have come to realize.

If there’s one thing you can be sure of it’s that anxiety lies.

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